12 years / Mom
Another year without you. I hope you're ok. I wonder if you're back here as someone else, with a different role, a different purpose. I still look for you, I search eyes, but so far I don't think I've seen you. We're doing ok, Curt and everyone is moving on with their lives which is the way it should be. I think of you every day, and my heart still aches. I know that won't ever change. Our family has grown, with Luca and Malin now, and Rob and Jenna getting married next year. Our place in Meaford is pretty amazing, I'm sure you've seen it. I have Papa's bible with your, and Granny's and Garry's pictures there - it's important that you're all there with us everytime. Today is a day that Dad doesn't go to work, we just sort of hang and cry a bit, sometimes a lot, but mostly thank God for having you for the time we did. We'll go to BP tonight. We'll do our best to make you proud of us, as we are so proud of you.
I love you, Curt...peace. Close
Happy Birthday! / Mom
Happy 29th, Curt! I couldn't write on the actual day because this site has been down for awhile. However, all is good now. I hope you're happy and thriving and I wonder if in fact you are back here on Earth - I keep looking for you.
Boston Pizza for your birthday - Dad and I were going to a Blue Jays game, so we went to the one at Rogers Centre. Laura, Rob and the kids went to the one near Rob's and Judy and Bill went to the one in Sydney, NS...it's pretty cool. You are missed and loved so much .
Luca and Malin are growing up quickly, Luca starts kindergarten in September, and Malin will go to a nursery school. Blue is getting old - I keep forgetting you never met him either, but he's the best dog ever, you would have loved him. Rob and Jenna are making their plans for their wedding next July, so that's exciting! The sisters are all good, Cornwall gang is the same too. Chris Kortschot is getting married this September! Patti is getting better every day and stronger, it's good to see.Keep watching over her when you can, ok?
Our Meaford place is where we like to be - I hope you know of it.
That's about it for now, Curt...I love you, I miss you every single day. Still so many things trigger happy and sad memories - I guess that will never change. I keep finding dimes, and the occasional produce will fall off the shelf right in front of me. I love it! xoxox Peace. Close
Mother's Day 2017 / Mom
Another Mother's Day without you...it still makes me sad. Dad and I were in Meaford, it was very quiet this year. That's ok. I thought a lot about you, and about Granny and lots of things. I hope you're doing something fun and crazy and that your new life is all that you hoped. I think of you every day, and miss you so much. Peace. xoxox Close
My arm / Mom
Can you see my arm? I absolutely love it....I feel great comfort every day, it's perfect. It's your ECG from 1992, ( and the bunny, of course) . You were only 4 years old, but had completed the Fontan. You were so so strong, so brave, never complaining. Patti and Anne Martz came with me to get it done - they thought it was pretty special too. I hope you like it. I love you and miss you every single day. Peace. Close
My friend / Patti Collins (Friend)
Curtis, I think of you often. There are so many reminders in the world around me. There was a time when I feared that these reminders would present themselves and I would be crushed, now I look forward to them and I am happy to embrace all the memories of you. Your mom and I have taken care of each rough the years, so I hope that pleases you. You brought us closer. Your smile is missed. A Hui Hoi Close
Christmas 2017 / Mom
I can't believe this will be our 12th Christmas without you...it sounds like such a long time, but it still feels raw. We still talk about you, I still talk TO you, every day. Even little Luca says you find us great parking spots. :) So much has happened, Curt, I hope you're up to date. Rob and Jenna will be getting married in 2018, I know you would love her, she's wonderful. Laura and Yash have 2 kids now, Luca is 3 and Malin is 3 months...you'd be a great uncle, Curt....Rob is an amazing uncle, Luca thinks he's pretty special. Dad and I love being grandparents, we're Nana and Papa....no one gets the title of Granny! The Cornwall gang are all doing well, Grandma and Aunt are still kicking :). All my sisters are well, Allie & Simon are good...life just seems to carry on which I guess is the way it should be. Watch over Patti for me - there were few bumps in the road for her and I worry sometimes. They sold the cottage this year, and there were so many memories of you there. Remember you, me and Patti and the pumpking pie and whipped cream?? Dad is great, I'm sure you've seen our place in Meaford. He loves it there, I know you would have too. We're going to be having Christmas at Laura and Yash's this year, we'll see Luca open his presents from Santa! I'll think of you a lot that day, Curt...I loved how excited you got, and I'll cry a bit, again, wishing that day in October never happened. Stay close, sweetie, and know that you are never far from my thoughts and I love you so much my heart still aches. Peace. Close
Mother's Day 2016 / Mom
Hi Curt - this will be my 10th Mother's Day without you . I think of you every single day, whether it's wearing your runners ( still!!), or finding a dime, or a parking spot :) or having an appetizer! You are always present, and I find a lot of comfort knowing that. Laura is a great mother to Luca and they're going to have another baby in September... a little girl this time!!! Stay close to all of us, sweetie , and extra close to Patti if you can. I love you, and I love being your mom. Peace. Close
Checking In / Christopher Oliver (friend)
Hoping you're watching over your family from wherever you are Curtis - You are always missed. Maybe you bumped into my father last year, if so, could you show him the card trick I loved so much - he would get a kick out of that ! Close
10 Years / Mom
Hey sweetie. 10 years is a long time - a long time of not hearing your laugh, or seeing your smile or feeling your hugs. We do, tho, feel that you're around us, some days more than others. Dad especially feels your presence a lot. I want to feel you more. 10 years has brought so many changes, and i imagine you have changed too. A friend of dad's said you're back on Earth - we're not sure in what capacity but I know that whoever you are, or wherever you are, you're still a caring, thoughtful, loving person as we knew you. The Earth needs more people like you Curt. One day I feel I'm going to pass you in the street and I'll know it's you. I look for you all the time. Some day, right? If you're still in Heaven and you see Granny and Papa and Garry and Grandpa - give them hugs for us ok? Laura, Yash and Luca are all doing well, Luca is a pretty neat kid! I hope you're seeing him. Rob and Jenna are good too, and Blue is getting older - he's 9, Rob got him the year after you passed. I hope you see him too, you'd love him. The Blue Jays are having a hot year this year so we're pretty excited about them. Dad and I are good, carrying on, looking to the future. Watching baseball. :)
You're still present in our thoughts every single day Curt, and we love you and miss you and our hearts still ache, even after 10 years.
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9 years / Mom
Well, it's now 9 years since you left us so suddenly, but as always, it feels like yesterday. So much has happened here, good and bad, but I'm hoping you''re up to speed on everything 😄. I just wish I knew what YOU'VE been doing for 9 years. Aunt Beryl is with you now, Curt, so I hope she finds you and Granny and papa and the gang. I'm loving being a Nana and Luca is such a sweetie...I mention your name to him every time I,m with him, I want him to know you. Curtis is his middle name. ❤️. Dad and I are travelling tomorrow and I'm still looking for you like the psychic told Sue...maybe on this trip we'll meet . Rob and Laura are both doing well, and I trust you're watching over them...and finding them parking spots ! I miss you every single day Curt, and I can still hear your laugh. They're happy memories, all of them. We're off to Boston Pizza tonight with Laura, Yash, Luca and Rob...cactus chips. You're everywhere. I love you, Curt.
Happy 26th Birthday! / Leanna
Hey Curtis! Happy Birthday! I can't believe we are 26. Wow, it looks so much older in writing than it feels. How does that happen? It feels like just yesterday we turned 16 and danced it up together at my beach party. I know that if you were here right now, you'd be kicking so much ass at this "adult" life thing. Ahhh, who am I kidding, you'd still be the biggest goof and inner child in the world. And you'd still be so infectiously happy and sarcastic. I miss that so freakin' much. Your life was (and IS) so special. You have left such a positive imprint in the lives of all of your friends. We all talk about you all the time, rest assured of that. All this time has passed and you are basically still the MVP of our friend group. haha. Always stealing the show. Actually, I see your memorial rock at Markville every time I go for a run. Or when I'm driving. Basically I always see it. And every time I do, I get a happy feeling and a sinking feeling in my heart simultaneously. I find that I'm wishing we had more time together. New memories to make. New laughs. More recent heart-to-heart conversations. But you know what? Everything we did have was so special and I feel so blessed to even have been given your friendship in my life. I wouldn't trade it for anything, other than to have you around here longer obviously. I still get to see you every once in a while in my dreams, which makes me so happy. And you still leave me little signs here and there and "nudges" at random times. That is so special and I feel you are always with me. Thank you for keeping me in your heart and for not forgetting about me. I know I have not forgotten about you. Happy 26th my friend....I am sending you a huge bear hug and in my mind I'm running around in the fields with you right now laughing. Can you feel it? xo Close
Happy Birthday! / Mom
Happy Birthday Curt! 26 years ago you came into this world and my life, along with so many others, changed forever. So many people still talk about you, remember your smile, your laugh, your kindness, and your card tricks!! I hope you're still doing them Curt - sometimes Holly finds cards on the streets in San Francisco, and she is reminded of you. It's nice, and I love that she shares it with us. Laura and I are going to the Jays game today, and Laura says you can have a beer with us!! Stay close, sweetie, we love and miss you everyday. I put some bright sunflowers at your site, I love them - ( and some Pez :)) Patti and Lisa left a card, and I'll leave it unopened - it's only for you. I hope you've read it already.
So, Happy Birthday Curtman, I wish, again, that we could celebrate this day together in person, but it was not to be. I love you so so much. Peace. Close
Mother's Day 2014 / Mom
It's obvious I lose track of time…this is my 9th Mother's Day without you, NOT 7!! My God, that's pretty bad eh? The number doesn't really matter tho... I still am, and will forever be, you mom. I love you. I miss you. Peace. Close
Mother's Day 2014 / Mom
So, this is my 7th Mother's Day not having you here. It feels a lot longer, but it also feels like yesterday again. I am very proud to be your mother. You would be very proud of your sister - Laura is an amazing mom to Luca. He adores her, his little face lights up every time he sees her. I hope that you can see him, Curt, and I wish you could have known him. You can, however, watch over him. That would make me happy.
We're all going to Duck again, Curt, and it's always bittersweet going there, knowing what good times we had with you there. But, it's all good. The kids are going to rent a van :) in Norfolk and drive from there, dad and I will drive from here. I'll watch for road kill….remember that trip to Ball State University???
Oh, man, Curt, some days it still hurts so much, right out of the blue. Maybe you were close to me that day? I don't know, but i'm always surprised how devastating some days can be. But, for the most part, things are very happy here, I absolutely love being a nana (that's my name…you like it ? ) , Dad and I are travelling more, he's not gigging as much, …it's all good, Curt.
Please give Granny a big kiss for me, and tell her I think of her often, especially when we play cards. I'll tell her Happy Mother's Day myself…will she hear? Of course Papa and Garry and Grandpa, and maybe Laura Sturm if you happen to see her.
I love you always, Curt, and honestly, honestly, I think of you every single day. Still.
Merry Christmas / Mom
Merry Christmas! I hope you were together with Granny and Papa and Garry and Grandpa, and all your new friends :)
We missed you, and you are never forgotten, Curt. Laura and Yash gave me a beautiful locket and your picture is inside..remember when you made that disappearing video out in the backyard, with that red trucker hat? Well, that's the picture in my locket - I love that one. I'm going to put a picture of Luca on the other side of the locket - it will be so special. There was also a deck of card with 3 different pics of you. How great is that?? Luca is a sweetie, Curt, and I know you'd love him..he smiles so much now. I don't know, maybe you already have seen his smile? Rob is a great uncle, and Laura is an amazing mom. You'd be proud of them. Rob and Sasha are great, they brought their dogs and stayed for a couple of days along with Laura, Yash and Luca so it was a full house. We went to Allie and Simon's for Christmas dinner with everyone - it was nice, good food, lots of laughs.
Dad and I went to a Leafs game last night, it was so cool! We'll be doing quite a bit of travelling next year, so I hope you stay nice and close! Rob's job is going well, Laura is still on maternity leave until October. Cousin Sarah is getting married this year! We don't see too much of the Cornwall/Perth/Ottawa gang, but we do talk, and everyone is still hanging in. Grandma and Aunt both had hip operations and are doing pretty well. Sarah and Nathan live in Toronto, and Katie, Charlotte and Jonathan are all in Ottawa. Patti and Gary and Tim and Lisa are all trucking along too, doing good stuff! Lisa's flower store has really taken off, she's very busy. Other than that, Curt, not much changes here. Dad is busy with work, and the band still plays, but not as much. I work a little :), and will be looking after Luca 2 days/week when Laura goes back to work. I can hardly wait. I feel that right now I'm in a good place, Curt. It's taken a long time. I hope it lasts.
I think of you every day, Curt, and I see your face everyday. I still wear your runners and your Sorel boots (although dad gave me boot for Christmas, but I'll never give yours away). You're such a big part of my life, our family and that will never change. I love you. Peace. Close
8 years / Mom
This site has been down for quite awhile - I'm glad I can finally write to you! Well, another year has passed and I still can remember exactly how the day unfolded. I guess I always will. I hope you're doing everything you love to do, Curt - you deserve it!
There have been a lot of things that happened this year and I hope you're aware of them all, hon. Biggest news.....Laura and Yash had a baby boy, Luca Curtis, in September...you and Rob are uncles!!! I really hope that you can connect with him in your own way, Curt.. I think he would like that. I am called Nana, and dad is called Pops. I like Granny ,but there is ever only one Granny, right? Say hi to her and Papa for me, - I know they would have loved to be here for Luca as well.
Dad and I went to Portugal in September with Rob and Sasha and had an awesome time. Did we see you there???? You know what I mean. Rob's business is doing well, he and Sasha have 2 dogs and a cat . You'd like them all. I think your friends are all doing well in their own fields, Michael travels a lot...I follow them on Facebook sometimes. Dad is working hard, still playing in the band. My workload is really minimal now, so I'm planning on spending more time with Luca if I can...perfect, right?
A patient of dad's said you're back now...whatever your contract is I know you'll do well - you're smart, determined, loving...everything else in-between!!
I miss you Curt, every day, and I love you every minute of every day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 25?! / Leanna
Happiest of Heavenly Birthdays to you! Every single year we turn another year older, it is a reminder to me of just how young you were when you moved on. How is it up there? Or "over" there? Wherever "there" might be? Wish we could hug again. I dreamt of you last night and as always, it made me wake up with a smile on my face, but with a bittersweet feeling in my heart. I miss you, my friend. I miss our hugs, and laugh attacks, and jokes, and our pure enjoyment at the simplicities in life. Remember the broken cucumber? You got so mad about that. lol. I wish we had new memories together....but in a way, I feel that we do...in some weird dimension of life we have created new memories together, meeting in my dreams and in our shared memories, and in our "visits" with the random little signs you leave me. It might not seem real to the rest of the world, and to be honest it is frustrating not being able to physically talk to you in real life and get a response back, but however dreamlike these 'interactions' are they still feel real to me and I value them with every fiber of my being. I really mean it Curt. I hope you celebrated and enjoyed your 25th! Wait, does that make you 8 years old in Heaven time? lol! You're young :P Also....you've gained a couple of new souls this year up in your 'hood....some of my favorites actually. Please tell "Uncle Tony" from Sopranos that I absolutely loved him and will miss his talent sorely. And please tell Cory Monteith from "Glee" that he's a stud and he's broken some hearts down here. All the while, I'm sure you're just the life of the party and eagerly waiting for the rest of your crew to join you someday.
25 years old!! / Mom
Happy birthday Curt!! On earth you would have been 25 years old today...are you 25 in heaven too? I find that so hard to grasp. I miss you every day and I think I talk about you every day...to whoever will listen :). Last night we went to Boston Pizza with Patti and Gary, had cactus chips of course. Today I'm going to put the sunflowers at your site, I love them, they seem like a happy flower to me. We'll see Laura and Yash and Rob and Sasha today and maybe another Boston Pizza trip...I know you'll be right there with us. I'm surpised how weepy I am today, Curt...I guess some days are better than others. Lots of people have remembered your birthday, it's nice. I hope you're celebrating in heaven, and I hope you see Granny and Papa and Garry and Grandpa . Send me a sign sometime if you can....i do love the parking spots tho, that's amazing!! Keep close sweetie, I can still hear your laugh. I love you. Happy birthday. Peace. xoxox Close
Merry Christmas! / Leanna
In the past, usually around some time tomorrow morning I'd be hearing your familiar sweet voice on the phone saying Merry Christmas. I miss that. Merry Christmas Curtis! The celebration in Heaven must be RIDICULOUS!!!! I can only imagine....Curt, hope you get the chance to visit your family here (and friends, hint hint) in some way this Christmas. Your presence is missed! Please leave a note or something somehow! :) I love you and wish you a happy time up there. Peace and love! Leanna Close